Monday, June 27, 2005

first day of school,
HUGE yawns.
so so tired.
could barely sleep last night.

something just struck me this morning.
its like i wanna know,
and yet i don wanna know.
well, whatever.

heres a little something which made my day.
" you'll have to kiss many frogs to find a prince"
i just found it damn cute.
HAHAA.
thanks suki,
if you'll ever see this.

argh,
wanna go wayyy back in time.

Sunday, June 26, 2005

i open my eyes
i try to see but i’m blinded by the white light
i can’t remember how
i can’t remember why i’m lying here tonight

and i can’t stand the pain
and i can’t make it go away
no i can’t stand the pain

how could this happen to me
i made my mistakes
i’ve got no where to run
the night goes on
as i’m fading away
i’m sick of this life
i just wanna scream
how could this happen to me

everybody’s screaming
i try to make a sound but no one hears me
i’m slipping off the edge
i’m hanging by a thread
i wanna start this over again

so i try to hold onto a time when nothing mattered
and i can’t explain what happened
and i can’t erase the things that i’ve done
no i can’t

Thursday, June 23, 2005

eeeeeeeeee.
im so bored.

just got back from malaysia.
did some shopping there.
even though there was like nothing much to buy.
contridicted myself?
hah, whatever.

schools re-opening -
homeworks untouched
and report book can't be found.
fuck,
jerlyn did a wonderful job.

been bitten by the "ah-lian" bug.
can't stop all that XxX ZzZz nonsense.
its just so,
part of me now.
EEEEEEEEEEEEEEEE
what did i just say?!

i think im becoming a chao ji ah-lian.
this is so NOT RIGHT please.
ohh, this is a HAPPEE entry.
im happee.
cause i feel like it.

guess what, this entry isn't making sense.
blahblahblah.
whats this nonsense!

Wednesday, June 22, 2005

numb it.
everything doesn't make sense.

Thursday, June 16, 2005

lost the mood to blog,
fuck.
so tired please.
haven't been sleeping well.
im so tired.
YAWNS.
argh.

Monday, June 13, 2005

back from wherever i went.

half of the hols are gone in a blink of the eye.
haven't done anything productive so far,
except grow horizontally in size.
much as i wish i would grow vertically instead.
fuck.
now, thats not right.

wish the past would just fade away in a blink of an eye too.
that leaves me no choice but to pretend.

i won say im good at ignoring ;
i've just become a better actor.
if only memories were like passing clouds.


holding on to memories,
is just like trying to catch air with your bare hands.
no matter how hard you try ;
you'll never get anything outta it.

Tuesday, June 07, 2005

that'll be 5 days in hk,
not exactly thrilled though.
don ask me why.

guilt,
can you live with it?
you know what you want.
and this isn't it.

happiness, how long can it last.
meanwhile,
pain, thats for eternity.

blah blah blah.
get over it.


off to hk,
till then.

Friday, June 03, 2005

another day has passed.
blah blah,
got maths later on.
don know if i'll be able to wake up.
fuck.

ohh, my dad's found a new way to threaten me -
by not giving me my allowance?
but then again.
he never actually puts any of his threats into action.
so, i'll see how.
heh.
HATE TUITION.

gon go down to the nkf headquaters later on after maths.
omg, can't believe it.
im gon look for some volunteer work there.
hrmm.
might as well.

ohh, boring days.
yes. i'm a no-lifer.
can't help but admit it.
going down to town almost everyday,
is considered no-life.
think my hols are only gon revolve around town and school.
gawd save me.

what you see, is an illusion.
what you can't see, is the real thing.
meanwhile, screw life.
cause its sucks.
and i hate it.
sounds cliche ;
but thats the plain and simple truth.

urgh, minds in a huge huge mess.
not looking forward to saturday.

gon be leaving for hk soon.
my mom's really weird.
like, after coming back from hk.
she wants to go to vietnam?! wtf.
shoot me.
no way am i going there.

i miss her.
i miss everything.
fuck,
get over it you bitch.
urgh.

internal bleeding ;
you let it bleed, non-stop.

another day has passed.
blah blah,
got maths later on.
don know if i'll be able to wake up.
fuck.

ohh, my dad's found a new way to threaten me -
by not giving me my allowance?
but then again.
he never actually puts any of his threats into action.
so, i'll see how.
heh.
HATE TUITION.

gon go down to the nkf headquaters later on after maths.
omg, can't believe it.
im gon look for some volunteer work there.
hrmm.
might as well.

ohh, boring days.
yes. i'm a no-lifer.
can't help but admit it.
going down to town almost everyday,
is considered no-life.
think my hols are only gon revolve around town and school.
gawd save me.

what you see, is an illusion.
what you can't see, is the real thing.
meanwhile, screw life.
cause its sucks.
and i hate it.
sounds cliche ;
but thats the plain and simple truth.

urgh, minds in a huge huge mess.
not looking forward to saturday.

gon be leaving for hk soon.
my mom's really weird.
like, after coming back from hk.
she wants to go to vietnam?! wtf.
shoot me.
no way am i going there.

i miss her.
i miss everything.
fuck,
get over it you bitch.
urgh.

internal bleeding ;
you let it bleed, non-stop.

Wednesday, June 01, 2005

sweet 16?
nah, don think so.

its pointless.