Tuesday, May 31, 2005

"a few years down the road, you're gon be an adult"
"when will you learn how to behave like one?"
"do you want to be cutting yourself for eternity?"
"do you want to be seen as an emotionally unstable person?"

bits and pieces of the conversation.
fuck off.

i think my world's breaking down.

i hate failure.
i hate you.
i hate EVERYTHING.

a pointless obsession.

Sunday, May 29, 2005

hate this life,
i want out.

Saturday, May 28, 2005

lets rip it up,
really well.
its highly addictive.

wheres my painkillers?
i need them right now.
can't shake off those demons.
fuck.

Wednesday, May 25, 2005

found my diary,
flipped through the pages.
hah,
ohh well.
thats life.

wish i had the courage to.

Tuesday, May 24, 2005

no netball for me today.
instead, i did cheerleading.
wtf.
kinda screwed up a lil here and there.
ohh well.

learnt the dance steps yesterday,
and im still ACHING like mad all over.
so din wanna get up this morn.
wonder how the others managed the 9? games today?
hrmm.

im burnt, once again.
fuck.

immissingsomebody :(
why?!
your image has been tattooed on at the back of my mind,
permenantly there.
can't forget you.

Saturday, May 21, 2005

im dead tired.
ZzZzZz...
wow, THATS cool!
if you get the joke.
heh.

got back all my papers.
and well, faced more disappointments.
don know how im gon answer for those results.
oww,
headache.

ohh, was left with no choice.
and so now im gon play netball.
wow.. .
my whole body's aching all over.
and i just realised,
i've got no stamina at all.
urgh.

and did i mention?
i've finally found a new favourite colour.

hrmm.. im so random.
ohh fuck.
i'll shut up for now.
till then.

Wednesday, May 18, 2005

got back 2 papers.
did REALLY well.

i just knew,
there was no such thing as a PERFECT plan.
~!@#
BLAH BLAH.
screw that bitch.
she really gets her way around,
with depriving people of certain things.

more papers tmr.
:(


if you want to break my heart,
do it well.
let me bleed to death,
so i'll be spared.

Tuesday, May 17, 2005

sighh.
theres so so much in my head,
maybe thats the reason why i've been getting these headaches.

something tells me,
that i should stop wallowing in self-pity.
and like, go get a fucking life.
hah,
then again,
something tells me that i should just simply give up.

the noise around me is putting my patience to test.
ohh, another day at school.
something to and not look forward to.
odac, shall i go?

well, been thinking bout this someone.
who used make up a rather large part of my life.
and i guess im just a lil not used to the change.
but then again,
hah.
nobody quite knows..
and im still fucking pissed with that someone.
i think i want an apology.
that'll do fine.
but anyhows best of luck to that person.
the day i get that apology,
is the day that person actually goes though some major change.

Friday, May 13, 2005

can't take it,
her english really sucks.
and its getting on my nerves.
guess if 2 people stick arnd too much together,
thats the result,
HAHAA!
ohh, and honestly,
she'll never make it.
nah, ain't being mean.
just stating a fact. :D

what a weird encounter today.
heres part of the conversation.
"do you cut yourself here?" , points to his wrist.
"uhh, no?!" , gives him a weird/shocked expression.
heh, weirdo.
ohh well guess it made my day in town,
HAPPENING for once.
HAHAA!
shit im easily amused.
urgh.

ohh, what a HAPPENING day tmr,
im going to bras basar complex.
wherever the hell that is.
and theres tuition in the morning.
damnit. can't take it.
its sucha happening day.
hrmm.

blah blah blah.
i wanna go watch TEEEVEEE.

Thursday, May 12, 2005

ohh, the long awaited thursday.

did i mention,
chinese was sucha breeze,
had sucha good sleep.
hrmm,
actually, i din even bother to do the paper.
sighh, i'll study for final year maybe?!
my foot.

lalala.
i wanna watch MOOVEEES.

Wednesday, May 11, 2005

its been getting a lil rocky here,
but i'll survive this.

blah blah blah,
i've been thinking it through.
sighh,
hrmm.
whatever.. .?!

thursday, im looking forward to :D

that one ; i miss
ain't much that i can say.
i pray it'll get better.

Monday, May 09, 2005

couting down till thursday,
ohh, what an excitement.
can't wait for accnts to be over;
screw chinese.

meanwhile, its time to pull my hair out,
over bio and art,
haven't studied a single shit nor have a i drawn a single thing.
why?
because i was so tired that i slept and slept and only woke up now.
fuck.
think im gon fail badly,
HOW?!

ain't looking forward to hk anymore.
in fact, im not looking forward to anything.
ohh, schools becoming a drag.

and did i mention bout that fucking bitchface sec1 today.
who had this stupid HUGE attitude problem.
ohh wells, MAJOR SOCIAL SUICIDE.
ain't gon go into the details.
but i must admit she does have balls,
to have rolled her fucking eyes at us,
ohh just fucking watch it.

Sunday, May 08, 2005

empty spaces fill me up with holes
distant faces with no place left to go
without you within me
i can't find no rest
where i'm going is anybody's guess

i've tried to go on like i never knew you
i'm awake but my world is half asleep
i pray for this heart to be unbroken
but without you all i'm going to be is incomplete

voices tell me i should carry on
but i am swimming in an ocean all alone
baby, my baby, it's written on your face
you still wonder if we made a big mistake

i don't mean to drag it on,
but i can't seem to let you go
i don't wanna make you face this world alone
i wanna let you go (alone)


and i'll watch the world fly by me,
without you; of course.
imissyou

like, i so should not be here now,
lots of prep work to be done,
not forgetting bio?! history?!
ohh WTF.
but i've just lost my mood to do so.
fuck all these emotions.

Friday, May 06, 2005

to spend half your time ;
coping with depression and suicide,



don't talk to me like you know it better than me.

im gon fucking fail my exams.
how bout a I GIVE UP?

Thursday, May 05, 2005

you sure do have a way,
of making me feel like.
FUCK.

thanks.

now thats a weird combination.
hah.
i want it MY way.
fuck you.

Wednesday, May 04, 2005

caught up in the middle of a frustrating situation.
damnit.
i wanna rip my head apart.
:(

gon ignore the other issues for the time being.
don wanna get my moods swinging yet again.
theres plenty of time after the exams anyway.
guess i'll be free like fuck.
no more attachments to tt stupid NO LIFE cca.
ohh talking bout ccas
don know how im gon manage when odac resumes.

imissher ; hugesighhs.
it ain't love,
its just a intense obsession.

fuck.
im drained, want some rest.

Monday, May 02, 2005

A few times I've been around that track
So it's not just gonna to happen like that
Because I ain't no hollaback girl
I ain't no hollaback girl

Let me hear you say this shit is bananas
B-A-N-A-N-A-S
(This shit is bananas)
(B-A-N-A-N-A-S)

:) how much more retarded can this get?
LOVESIT.
hrmm.
gon do some studying later.
heh.
hope no more retarded things happen.

i've got my answers.
no more guessing games.

Sunday, May 01, 2005

was out studying today.
gosh.
PEEQUE!
stop looking for trouble please.
HAHAA.
why are you so retarded?!
stop coming up wit shit ideas and STUDY.
"benjamin yoon rocks [ like not ]"

left pretty early cause i was feelin sick.
felt like puking and all.
sorrayes QUEPEE :)
thanks for helping me get the panadols.

ohh screw it.
my mom just threw away 90 cents again.
annoying.
this is the %#@ time shes done it already.
HAH.
at the same time i hope you realise .. .

:) ? :( ?
heh,
whatever.
why should i care anyway?
no more comments available.
i feel like puking still.
even after a long sleep.
urgh. screwwww .. .