Sunday, February 27, 2005

i don know wot te say now
cause i can't find any words te express it.
sighh.
lalalaa.
bitch !@#$%

spent the whole weekend lying in bed.
cause
i simply din haf the energy te even get up.
so fucking boring please.
and now im ohh-so-screwed
cause i haven't studied for like i don know how many million tests.
and arts not done yet.
urghh. sucks please.

i think i shud go and sleep now.
cause sleeping brings me te my fantasy land.
okae.
shut up jer.

Friday, February 25, 2005

no school for me today.
thank god.

and it all goes back te square one.
please.
don even bother te try te understand me.
just fuck off.
thank you very much.

they say curiousity killed the cat.
hrmm?
we'll see bout it. =P

the fastest way te loose love is te hold on too tight
the best way te keep love is te give it wings.
i'm letting ye go wit all my heart now.
sighh.
who gives a fuck?!

amor, no es amour (if this ain't love)
more than my feelings (what am i doing wrong)
amor, no es amor (if this aint love)
its just an illusion that i have in my heart

Wednesday, February 23, 2005

sighh.
how much shit can happen in one day.
major spotcheck.
and wonder how seshaa is now.
odac was a super fucking killer.
omg.

anyway. all i haf te say is.
wotteva.
is tt okae wit ye?
and btw. the word bitchface is only meant for one person.
and its not ye.
so check the reliabilty of ye information please.
or maybe the person had heard it wrongly.
but. ohh WOTTEVA.

lalalaa.
i think im falling for ye.

Tuesday, February 22, 2005

until i met this girl who turned the tables around
she caught me by surprise and i
i never thought i'd be the one breaking down
i cant figure it out why
i'm so caught up got me feelin' it
caught up i don't know what it is
but it seems shes got me twisted
i'm so caught up
got me feelin' it
caught up i'm losin' control
this girls got a hold on me

i think its more than curiousity.
somehow.
hrmm.

so wot?
honestly.
fuck off please.

art sucks please.
zailee keeps on punishing us.
sighh.
i swear mrs mah is full of shit.
saw wot she did te the 3/10 girls for being late after recess.
absolutely hilarious.
woops. =P

urgh. im sucha failure at poning class.
seriously.
sucks man.
least i was lucky enuf te haf gotten away.

sorry.
but i don quite wanna bring up the past.
so yepp.

Monday, February 21, 2005

theres this someone.
who just makes me ohh-so-curious bout tt someone.
gosh.
wth is wrong wit me.
sighh. this isn't right jer.
ohh shut up.
fuck.
im loosing it.
theres art tmr.
hrmm.

if ye can't accept me for who i am.
fuck off.

imy.alott.

Sunday, February 20, 2005

think i said this before.
my lifes always been an act.
and i just grew tired.
i haven't changed.

think i owe ye some sorta explaination.
i didn't spread anything.
wether ye choose te believe it or not.
not tt it really matters te me.
cause no.1 i don even wanna talk bout it.
let alone spread rumours.
i've got other things on my mind.
anyway.
someone from ye class went through ye phone.
sometime last year.
ain't gon say who.
cause i don think tt matters.

and i don know wot kinda rumours ye've heard bout me saying that i can't stand ye and all.
but wotteva.
ain't gon bother te clear up this mess.
its getting pretty tiring.
seriously.

hrmm.
anyway.
i know i ain't perfect. like who is?
and no. i don haf everything.
and theres nothing for me te be jealous over? hrmm.
i know ye gon hate me for all this.
and i won care if ye spread stuff bout me.
curse at me.
swear at me.
give me trouble.
and wotteva else ye can think of.
simply cause.
im gon wash my hands off this matter.
and tts like.
the main reason why i actually chose not te reply.
yepp.
anyway. thanks for the quote.
i'll remember that.
heres one for ye too.
"what goes around comes around"
and so why did i choose tt?
hrmm.
maybe ye'd know someday.
hahaa.


yours truely,
#jer

Saturday, February 19, 2005

and i thought i was like gon be real sad.
but hell no. i wasn't.
hahaa.
was telling ching a few days ago bout how i wasn't gon take anyone seriously.
and somehow.
i just realised.
i never quite did. =P
think im much happier now.

watched hide and seek yest.
omg. it was so scary and unpredictable.
and it really freaked us out.

went down town today after band.
and tt was ohh-so-forceful.
sucks please.
urgh. screw him. stupid bitch. ~!@#$%
took a cab wit stef cause the bus was like taking forever.
stopped at hereens.
and we went off on our own ways.
lalaa.
din buy anything today.
nothing nice.
and i wasn't in the mood te spend. =P
gon go for the cj band concert tmr.
and i so don know wot te wear.
urgh.
heck. i'll just find something. i guess.

i just so love being me.=P

Thursday, February 17, 2005

i told ye but ye din believe me.
thanks but no thanks.

I AM SO GOING TO KILL AMANDA CHEOK.

FOR CHEATING MY FEELINGS.

TIME AND OVER AGAIN!

but.

ohh. thank god.

Wednesday, February 16, 2005

mrs mah sure has an interesting way of punishing latecomers.
stand on our chairs?
ohh wth.
heck. it was pretty fun.
but standing there for 1 period was draining.
ohh seriously.
don even talk bout paying attention.
hrmm.
we so wanted te pon maths.
but shit.
mrs mah saw us. so we had like no choice.

fell down during odac.
just like i thought i wud.
tripped over i don know wot shit.
and i really hate the sun.
sucker.

tmr doesn't look good.
urgh.
don wanna think bout it anymore.
i wanna sleep forever.

missyou.
like hell. does that even matter te ye.

Tuesday, February 15, 2005

cause all of the stars
are fading away
just try not to worry
you'll see them some day
take what you need
and be on your way
and stop crying your heart out

i don know why.
but i can't control the tears anymore.
after so much...
its still a dead end.

guess i've been given many chances.
but i kinda threw it all away.
there was so much i cud haf said.
but i was just so lost for words.

odac tmr.
looking foward te it.
im gon run away all my frustrations.

so everything i think might happen.
seems te really happen?
like somehow.
so wots gon happen on the 17th?
hahh.
wth do i even care now.
nothings gon happen.
urghh.
theres just too much room for my stupid thoughts.
so i guess. i'll be a nerd now.

hopefully tmr wud be a better day.
don wanna start stoning again.
im dying.
from a lack of sleep.
and my stomach hurts like fuck now.
blahh.

say all ye want.
only i know the truth.

Monday, February 14, 2005

happy vday all.
did some retarded stuff today.
made a new friend.
yes py. made a new friend. *ahem
i'll introduce ye te her someday alright.
though i don think theres a need for tt.
i'm pretty sure she knows ye.
unless shes really tt -.

lalaa.
sighhs.
okae. i just realised. my brain really does take a really long time te process information.
and.
i received so many different view points.
like wth.
so which is right. i don know.
and yes. my dear woman self-serviced herself te my inbox today.
and then the news got round within the group pretty fast.
thanks alott man.
but anyway.
thanks for staying awake te talk te me.
even though ye were so tired.
cause i was like so bored.
urgh.

you should let me love you
let me be the one who
gives you everyhting you want and need
baby good live and protection
make me your selection
show you the way love's suspossed to be
you should let me love you (love you)
love you

Saturday, February 12, 2005

sorry.
but i just simply can't be bothered te reply the msg.
simply cause.
i din say a word.
and im kinda sick of explaining it everytime.
hate me?
wanna call me a bitch?
wanna get back at me?
thats okae.
btw.
half the world knows bout it now.
cause.
ye made it really obvious.
others haf eyes.
and *hands te go find out answers.
heyy come on.
if ye din do anything wrong.
wth are ye so afraid of letting others know?

yours truely,
#jer

Friday, February 11, 2005

its been a pretty crap week.
much has been going on.
and i think im gon crack up real soon.
the feelings still there.
how screwed.
wait. i already am screwed up in the first place.
i felt my heart pull again today.
during art.
during recess.
i must near death by now.
i seriously need an asprin now thank you.
urgh. fuckyou.
why??!!
and it is possible te like 2 pple at once.
its just a matter of who ye like more.


dedicated to-

that heartbreaker.

ilovedyou.

and imissedyou.

i do swear that i'll always be there.
i'd give anything and everything and i will always care.
through weakness and strength,
happiness and sorrow,
for better, for worse,
i will love you with every beat of my heart.

from this moment life has begun
from this moment you are the one

right beside you is where i belong

from this moment on
i have been blessed
i live only for your happiness.
and for your love i'd give my last breath.

from this moment on
you're the reason i believe in love
and you're the answer to my prayers from up above
all we need is just the two of us
my dreams came true because of you.

Thursday, February 10, 2005

alrightt.
i swear cny is one of the most boring periods of my life.
cause my relatives are all godamned BORING.
HAHH!
and i barely know em anyway.
=P
hrmm.
anyway. was just wondering.
how can pple actually stay tgther for so long.
and like not get sick of one another?
like.
how can there possibly be so much love between 2 pple.
esp when love is never really fair.
cause when ye give up so much for the other party.
the other party may never returns it.
or may not even recognise it.
blahh.
i don know wth im talking already. fuck. hahaa.
im kinda sick of her.
but i still think shes cute.
fullstop.
nothing more then tt. =P

she always belonged te someone else.
from now on.
no more cuts.
no more pain.
no more lies. =P

Monday, February 07, 2005

had some sorta confession session today.
found out loads of interesting stuff.
which made me kinda -.
and made me think back and realise.
how i badly i screwed things up.
so i've decided sitting here crying over spilt milk ain't gon work out.
and i ain't gon expect anything in return either.
its alright if ye don appreciate it.
i hope ye'd always be happy.
i can't believe tt ye actually made me -.
sighh.
i'll be here. behind ye.
no matter wot happens.
imissedyou.

there ain't no more stars left in my sky.

Thursday, February 03, 2005

yayy.
pierced my tragus today.
gon get another ear piercing on sat.
im so excited. hahahaa.

someone slap me.
and break me free of this damn cycle.
im like so sick and tired.
theres this dumb thing.
that keeps on hovering above my head.
and it really stabs me.
so. just let me put it somewhere where i can understand.
i simply hate those copycats.
right now.
wot i really want is peace.
peace within myself.

everyone sure has their way of making me feel stupid.
ohh fuck.
imissedyou.

Wednesday, February 02, 2005

this is sick.
i feel like crap now.
and it really stings.
like a hell lot.

i feel so ostracised in my new seat.
the rest of my world is like at the other end.
urghh. horrible.
im still seperated away from my worm.
like. wth?! urghh.

alrightt.
made the right decision and ran with teng today.
man. shes good.
and thanks te her.
my timing improved by 3 mins.
hahahaa.
so tired.

you think you know me.
think again.
do you?

Tuesday, February 01, 2005

sighh.
so much has been happening.
lalalaa.
im so gon die from a lack of sleep soon.
like hell. seriously.

worms. lol.
worm 1
worm 2.
hahahahaa.
:P
im cracking up real bad. zzz.
im gon miss my worm tmr.
i don wanna switch partners!

imissedyou.imissedyou.imissedyou.imissedyou.
imissedyou.imissedyou.imissedyou.imissedyou.
imissedyou.imissedyou.imissedyou.imissedyou.
a fucking hell lot.
2004 holds too many memories for me.