Sunday, January 30, 2005

this skin is S C R E W E D.
blahh.

ohh tt stupid whore.
urgghh.
bitch.
eyesore!

concerts over.
like. finally.
so embaressing please.
hahh.

i simply hate this.
fuck.
urghh.
damn it. my stomachs in agony.
and my head is like spinning.
and there goes my mom again.
shes in one of those tantrums. AGAIN.
and there goes my younger sister.
whinning away like some lil bitch.
and theres my elder sister.
wasting her life away.
right.
and some bitch stole 80 bucks from me.
sighh.
sickening.

yea. saw someone yest night.
but no.
i din bother te talk te tt someone.
like why shud i anyway?
its not like it make a diff te anything.
ily. ily. ily. ily. ily. sighh.

Sunday, January 23, 2005

aaaaannooyyyingggggggg.
sucks please!!!
why herr?!?!
of all pple?!!
bad taste!!!!!
aaaaaaaaahhhhhhhhhh!!
im sad.
bitchyou!!

okae. did some stuff te my hair today.
and no it doesn't look a hell lot different.
but.
i don know.
we'll see bout it tmr. hahaa.

Friday, January 21, 2005

i won put up a fight this time round.
thanks for shattering it all.
the all i actually ever had.
i'll never be good enough for you.
or for anyone else.

everythings been good.
is this just another case of teenage angst?

spin my world.
make it blur.
then i won haf te see your face.
or hear your stupid voices of treason.

Thursday, January 20, 2005

okae.
so like half the world knows again.
blahh.
but thats okae.
its alright.

guess she knows it herself.
tt explains it all.
but it doesn't really matter anymore.
sighh.
ohh well.
guess i was just chasing after the impossible.
so theres like no point holding on.
i mean. like wotteva for.
i don stand a chance.
so tts the end of it.
fullstop.

it doesn't feel the same no more.
distance heals it all.

Wednesday, January 19, 2005

ohh world.
im starting te get sick of her.
but yea.
shes still cute and retarded te me.
hehh.

i'm getting quite sick of everything.
and i think my worlds spinning once again.
i may not be quite like the old me anymore.
good or bad.
i don know.
and don care.

i believe in fate.
so if fate has it.
which i doubt so.
maybe i wud stand a chance.
ahh.
fuck the world.
hahaa.

Tuesday, January 18, 2005

all the riches baby, won mean anything
all the riches baby, don bring what your love can bring
all the riches baby, won mean anything
don need no other baby
your lovin' is better than gold and i know

its you.
and i know it.

everydays a retarded day.
like SERIOUSLY RETARDED.
ohh well.
i love sec3 life!!
ohh and i swear mah mah sucks big time.
she keeps on like.
picking on us and all.
and she made us like stay back today cause we din hand up our homework.
like hell.
it was only one assignment.

damn.
i don know where i picked up this bimbotic behaviour from.
and.
i think its getting from bad te worse.
ewww. sucks please!
hehh.

my minds a mess now.
but. hell.
i don think its worth my time.
and effort.
so yea.
im just gonna forget bout the whole entire affair.
cause its causing too much shit.
and i'm quite tired of playing these games.
of trying te see who'd outlast who.
and.
like how ye constantly.
try and make me read ye mind.
so hrmm.
yea. its gonna end here now.
forgive and forget.

Sunday, January 16, 2005

ohh.
wot a lovely act.
ihateyoutobits!
blahh.

just got back from stacey's party not too long ago.
it was pretty boring at first.
cause it was like only me and eliz and her lahling who kept on annoying me.
and no. i don look like a cat.

but later on.
everyone started coming and all.
and we played truth or dare.
and only me and py did our dares.
cause the rest like din wanna play or din wanna do so.
ohh well.
it was pretty nonsensical.
and not forgetting all the coke spilling and cake smashing.

and damn.
i walked straight inte some dumb fuck thing.
and now i've got a blueblack on my leg.
which hurts like fuck.

ohh yea. and py and i met this bung from sjc.
and she was like.
super fucking retarded.
and i really mean it.
ohh and did i mention.
she slangs.
and tt was really -.

orientation kinda sucked.
but dance was good though.
hrmm.
i pray for all those sec1s.
tt they wudn't be dumb enuf te join band.
cause band like. simply sucks big time.
hahaa. WOOPS.
hehh.

lunch at billy bombers was horrendous.
i wasted like 23 bucks.
cause i like barely ate anything.
and the bill simply bombed my wallet.
ohh well.
the whole world seems te hate -.
so i guess its not just me.
but hehh. wotteva.

tired tired.
its gonna be a shit dayy tmr.
church tuition and homework.
looking forward te monday.

Thursday, January 13, 2005

you don know.
what you do.
everytime you walk into the room.
i'm afraid to move.
i'm weak.
its true.
im just scared to know the ending.
do you see me too?
do you even know you met me*?

` living the night.
high on pain.

do i even haf the right to be sad?

i guess tt was a lil harsh.
but heyy. i was being truthful.
stupid way te ask a person out anyway.
wots up with these guys.
blahh.

Wednesday, January 12, 2005

JOANNA PAY LOVES ME ALOTT.

:D :D :D :D :D :D :D :D :D :D :D :D :D

:D :D :D :D :D :D :D

alright.
im gonna start SMILING more.
but hehh.
i'll prob end up looking like an idiot who keeps on smiling te myself.
and no. i still don think im bimbo.
or am i?
hrmm.
i just scream a lil bit too much. and roll my eyes a lil more than others.
and i don think theres anything else.
is there? hrmm.
and. the conclusion is.
i'm not a bimbo. :D

shes just so cute.
and so so retarded.
but.
i like.
woops. hahaa.

everything happens for a reason.
but i can't seem te find the reason this time.
maybe im just searching for it in the wrong place.

Sunday, January 09, 2005

now did i mention?
i saw her yesterday.
several times in fact.
omfg.
and no. im not talking bout ~!@#$%^&.
its just this - someone.
hahahaa.

mom pulled me outta bed at 8 this morning.
and dragged me te mass.
yawn. so tireded.
hrmmm.
was nearly late.
and i saw.
another someone.
but. wotteva.
ain't feeling anything anymore.

urgh. i've got english tuition later on.
and tt really sucks please.
*claps* its sunday.
which means tmr is monday.
and that means.
-
hahahaa.
sighh. im hungry.
shall go and dig for food.

Friday, January 07, 2005

confessions day.
hahaa.
and so far i'ved ponned band 2 times this week already.
well.
we'll see bout the attendance later on.

okae.
i don exactly know how it started.
but im so super embaressed now.
and LIM EE CHING IF YOU SEE THIS.
you had better not sabo me.
cause.
i'll kill you.

yea. and i found out some stuff today.
bout.
someone.
and its godamn hilarious.
its really too funny to be true.
muahahahahaa.

hrmm. and i made another discovery too.
omg.
you'd never know till you ask.
hahaa.
it was a rather surprising piece of information.

anyway.
i wonder why people keep on lying to me and all.
am i really that stupid in their eyes?
i wonder why they even bother to lie to me in the first place.
well. nvm.
sometimes being a nobody is a bliss.

anyways. im gonna try keep to my new year resolutions.
-im gonna quit bitching.
-im gonna stop cursing and swearing. woops. hehh.
-im gonna be happy.
-im gonna get over you.

Tuesday, January 04, 2005

okae. i just typed out one damn post and it dissapeared?!
like wtf mate.

yea. and so i fell asleep after coming home yest.
yes. im a pig. i slept at 5pm till 6am.
hahaa.

my first day of school wasn't exactly happy.
even though.
i managed te see some friends tt i hadn't seen in quite some time.
i cried 2 times upon seeing 3/7 'o4.
yes. i'll miss em.
they moved on.
but not me.
the price of fooling arnd.
the price of being distracted.
sighh.
sucks please.

im not saying 3/9 'o5 is that bad.
the pple are okae.
they're quite friendly.
im just sore over the fact that 3/7 '04 moved on te 4/7
while im stuck in sec3 again.
that means i'll be going through adventure camp again.
and meanwhile.
they'll go through self-awareness.
SUCKS PLEASE.

and now the table's turned.
but i don think im happy.
theres nothing te be happy bout.
cause. yea.
what goes arnd comes arnd.
what goes up must come down.

my hearts with you.
even though i know yours isn't with me.
but thats okae.
i don expect anything.
i just want you to know.
i love you.
fuck.
so much for not falling in love.

Sunday, January 02, 2005

sighh.
its SUNDAY
and tmrs MONDAY.
SUCKS PLEASE.
i ain't looking forward te doing the same things again.
damn.
lets hope tomorrow wud be a good day for me.
i wanna go back in time.
SIGHH.
WHERES 2004?!
it passed by too quickly.

Saturday, January 01, 2005

its a new year now.
and i woke up only realising tt when i saw the msges sent te my phone.
was dead tired yest.
slept my way through the night.
ohh well.
not that it really makes a diff.
i ain't sure if im looking forward te 2005.
tt bitch still refuses te budge.
and shes still firm on her decision te retain me.
HAHH.
HECK. I FUCKING GIVE UP.
i guess.
things always happen for a reason?
i wud miss 2004.
minus all the not-so-happy and not-so-pleasant events.
but. fuck tt yea?
its a new year.
so im movin on.
blahh.

im only human.
i make the same mistakes ye do.
i haf emotions.
and im not that strong anymore.