Tuesday, September 28, 2004

exams are arnd the corner.
and i just realised tt. like. hrmm. 2 days ago?
fuckit.
alright. im gonna fail this damn exam.
how great. hrmm.
i haf come te the conclusion
that sweet talk is nothing more than just empty words.
so shutting up isn't a bad idea.
sometimes i think its better te know the truth.
it hurts less than not knowing the truth at all.
rather than live in self denial.
take a look at reality and see how blind ye are.
ye won haf te come up with excuses
te comfort yeself and dream of the impossible.
why raise false hopes when ye know at the end of the day.
ye gonna be the one hurt.
so i'll just leave it the way it is.
and get on with life.
afterall im im used te this crap.

woteva.its just another one of those fuckedupdays

Monday, September 27, 2004

i have nothing to gain and so nothing to prove.
i have nothing to give and so nothing to lose.
i’ll be here when you fall
when you fail.
when you cry.
trapped under the weight of my own love.
never to breathe easy
kill this ruptured memory
and let me forget who i am.

Sunday, September 26, 2004

i know tt some things aren't worth it
yet i don care.
wotteva. im getting bored of life.
its time for some changes.

Friday, September 24, 2004

well. nothing much has been happening for the past week.
or at least tts wot i think.
was feeling so tired the whole day in school.
slept so much. but was still so tired.
alright. the earlier i sleep. the more tired i am.
was in town earlier on te screw my specs. hahaa.
the dumb thing had a screw loose.
alright. my mum's mad.
apparently she thinks im attached?
like.. hello... te who?!
she sounded kinda shocked when i said i wasn't.
no idea where she got tt from.
ohh well. wotteva.
a week has passed
and im doing very fine.
people do change.
and i don see wots wrong with tt.
i don feel like having anything else te do with ye.
or rather. i don want te.
well. woteva. i don care anymore.
and im not afraid of being judged.
at the end of the day.
its my life im living. not ye's.
since ye can't please everyone.
live te please yeself.
so yah. why bother?

Sunday, September 19, 2004

promises are made te be broken.
so why bother te promise anyone anything?
alright. maybe tt only applies te me.

happiness is such a superficial thing.
it never really lasts.
why learn things the hard way
when ye could haf easily prevented things from happening.
heck. whatever.

it took time for me te forget.
and start again.
te hell with all this shit.
i don think i can take it again.

Thursday, September 16, 2004

argh. lifes so fucking annoying.
and im tired of being here.
im tired of pretending
im tired of smiling
im tired of repeating myself.
well. im stupid.
and i've come te terms with tt.
yes. i can't even teach pri school maths.
i feel like breaking the mirror
cuz i hate tt person i see.
i'll survive the next day
for i don haf the courage te leave.
sometimes words are really nothing more than just words.
i dunno why i find it so hard te believe.
ohh well. i don care no more.
sighh.
woteva.
te hell with everything.

Wednesday, September 15, 2004

there is nothing at all for me te blog abt.
so im here just to entertain myself.
type type. type.
go away first lah monkey.

okayyye. guess who's here? monkaye!! ((: hahaha...
jer's hangin around. so i cant say much. cos she's lookin @ me.
she'e been bullyin me all day long. poke poke and poke.
hahaha... o well. had errr. physics lesson. then got stranded in sch.
cos it startrd ta rain... )):
oh wells. ma msg ta -jer.

:: heyyys. do take care o yerself kae? hehe.
or else i'll take care of yer. haha i insist =D
yupp. nothin else ta sae. cos its more sincere
if i use ma gift of da gap. heehee.
//love -

monkaye. ((:

Tuesday, September 14, 2004

boring day at school.
was kinda stoning my way through the day
till after school.
wells. alright. i did pay attention during bio.
for a while tt is.
hahh. and the dumb thing is.
mrs chu thought i was day dreaming.
fine.
so maybe i should daydream.
then they'll think im there.
parents are outta town.
heaven! :)
waited for lesmate after school today.
decided te eat after tt
and went te ntuc te grab some choc.
hahas. headed home after tt.


lesmate
heyss. sorraye couldn't find hot pink.
ye fave colour.
the mark of a bimbo.
muahahahas.
thought this was a nice colour.
so i decided te use it.
zzz. i can't wait te go outt.
ohh wells. i guess we should just study hard first yea.
who haf i been going out with? hahas
make a guess.
yays. someone misses me :)
wells. whos my lover? hahas.
you? tsk.
haha. well.
hope ye enjoyed ye choc.
i promised te buy it for ye :)
rmb te miss me alrights?
hahas. don forget me when ye with ahem alrights. :P

Sunday, September 12, 2004

schools reopening.
mum and dad are going on a holiday soon.
good thing, bad thing?
good thing i'd say.
i ain't gonna miss em.
and at the same time i can extort $ from them.
went shopping for a blender just now.
for wot? i dunno.
somehow my mum has got alot of stuff te blend.
alright.
hehh. madness.
some stuff tt happened just now makes me wanna laugh out loud.
well. basically.
my day has been great.
everything seems te be going the right direction.
ohh wells.
blog another time.
i've run out of stuff te say.

Friday, September 10, 2004

Here I go, scream my lungs out and try to get to you
You are my only oneI let go,
there's just no one that gets me like you do
You are my only,
my only one
Made my mistakes, let you down
And I can't, I can't hold on for too long
Ran my whole life in the ground
And I can't, I can't get up when you're gone
And something's breaking up
I feel like giving up

fuck off.
just for today.
and maybe the next day as well.
and the day after that.
and so on.

Monday, September 06, 2004

im now addicted te chocs.
maybe i've just been deprived of them for 15 years.
i've been eating them like crazy for the past few days.
ohh well.
the morale of the story is.
don eat chocolates, they are addictive.
alright. woke up early te go te school.
had some sorta remedial lesson.
did phy and maths.
helpful or not? i dunno. and don care. hahh.
my main purpose was just te get outta the house.
went back home after tt.
came out again later te watch garfield.
hahaa. not a bad show.
feed me, love me, never leave me.
muahahahas.
i seriously think ching's suffering from some sorta deprived childhood.
hehe.
sad case.
anyways. after tt me and ongy went off te meet jacinta at taka.
left for tuition after tt.
zzz. omg. tuition was a torture.
hahh. had no idea wot was going on at all.
so yah. i kinda wasted my time there.
but ohh heck. whatever.
alright. im gonna get my arse off this chair
and find some stuff te do.
tts all for today.

Sunday, September 05, 2004

alright yesterday was a rather screwed up day.
nearly got forced te go for my confirmation camp.
mum changed her mind after some stuff happened.
but tt lead te alot of shit.
mum brought me te the doc.
and the doc asked me a thousand and one questions.
i swear he was damn annoying.
went back home after tt.
slept my way through.
woke up at bout 4+?
had dinner and lunch together.
played gunbound.
till bout 8+ and went for my run.
received phone calls and msges asking me out for supper.
so headed down te orchard for ice cream.
after tt went down te i can't rmb where.
cabbed back home after tt.
was already bout 1.30. glad mum din nag.
bathed and msged a lil bit till bout 2.40
then my day ended.
i decided te go off te zzz land.

Wednesday, September 01, 2004

absence makes the heart grow fond?
maybe.


my thoughts run wild.
and my heart bleeds dry.
i can't face the world the next day
and i just want te hide away
im living a life so superficial.
i feel so dead.
i'd say tt last goodbye.
and take the painn.
because you taught me how.

my day started with maths tuition early in the morning..
*yawns* hadda wake up so early.
hahaa. nvm. least i learnt something.
went back home te change and then i headed down te PS.
met hum and pet.
watched anaconda.
hahaa. not bad.
then we walked walked and walked.
te.. i dunno where.
can't rmb.
anyway. after leaving town.
me and hum
had dinner at long johns.
then we walked arnd bishan..
bought some clothes.
and tried on some as well.
haha.. funn.
alright. time te start saving.
*claps* my mum's got me my clinique happy heart.
haha.. like after how long.
shes gonna collect it soon.
ohh well. time tts all for today.
byes.