Saturday, July 31, 2004

had honours day today.
went back to school after that.
was caught unprepared.
din expect some things to happen.
everyone's reaction was like "huh?!"
so was mine.
went out te town after that.
was searching for a red shirt to wear on national day.
din find anything in the end.
ohh wells.
gonna wait fer my mum te come back.

Friday, July 30, 2004

my parents are outta town.
that means no nagging for four solid days.
but then my monkey's friend's are over here at my place. 
this is a bad bad bad thing.
the house is in sucha mess.
just like how im in sucha mess.
went down the hdb hub for honours day rehersal. 
sickening and tiring.
tmrs gonna be another screwed day.
i swear im going to hate band even more after tmr.
i really envy those who weren't involved in the honours day rehersal.
no teachers, no lessons, and most importantly..
OPEN BOOK TESTS.
heh.
no fair.

Thursday, July 29, 2004

face it.
people change.
yes im not who i used to be.

i want my space.
i want my freedom.
threaten me all you want.
guess wut. it ain't gonna work.  
cux i dun't giva fuck.

i'm not giving in.
leave me alone.

you say i dun't trust you.
i could say the same about you too.
you dun't trust me either.
i can sense that you doubt my words.

i tell you whats the problem.
you say that im accusing you.
you make a fuss out of nothing.
dun't you think you're a bitch?

rage is eating my heart alive.
your the root of all my problems.

get a life. and stop meddling in mine.
!@#$%^&*()_ bitch.

how i wished that, you would
take my hand,
and walk with me.
look into my eyes and tell me
you love me once again.
i know the sound of your feet,
would fall in place,
with the rhythm of my heartbeat. 
i hear the wind whispering to the shadows, 
our story.
as i walk down the well-trodden path,
that used to belong to me and you.
i feel myself fall into the darkness.
why kill me over and over again,
when you can do it just once?



ddone by. me  :) 
 

Tuesday, July 27, 2004

kae. im having a chinese ca tmr. and im here wasting my time. just can't get myself te study anymore. maybe i'll wake up at 4 tmr and start studying the rest of the chapters. yes im distracted. heck. kae. the time timetable tmr doesn't look good either. double geog double history. bad bad bad bad bad. argh. im so gonna fail chi.

Monday, July 26, 2004

kae. im flying. without ching that is. load of crap!! haha. the next time round. i'll think twice before i say anythin. helen tan cheated my feelings once again. she went home and made me stay back fer nothing. since tts the case she should just go home and attend te her baby. argh!  nvm. least i studied one chap of chinese. im so proud of myself!! :) *clap! clap! clap!* enuf fer now. imboredandtired. shall end this here.

Saturday, July 24, 2004

my phones missin. no idea where i last threw it to. sigh.

im screwed up.

Friday, July 23, 2004

hrmm. been thinking bout this. lets say ye used te like someone and afterawhile, ye realise its pointless so ye just give up on tt person. and a while later. ye kinda like tt someone again.. hrmm.. kae. but at the same time ye start te hate the person too. and why is tt so? i dunno.

 
kae. enuf of crap. i'll end here. haha. its been a crappy day..! ;) esp the walk te the interchange.

Thursday, July 22, 2004

kae. im screwed. all thanks te some bitch. fuck. why dun't ye just get a life and stop being sucha fucking hypocrite. ohh so ye wanna wut happened huh? ask ye fucking self. thanks fer acting like ye innocent. right now at this moment i feel like throwing the computer at ye. but guess wut. its not worth it. let me make this clear.

I HATE THE WAY YOU ANNOY ME
I HATE THE WAY YOU MEDDLE IN MY LIFE
I HATE THE WAY YOU THINK
I HATE THE WAY YOU ACT
I HATE THE WAY YOU TALK
I HATE THE WAY YOU ARE
lets just put it this way. I HATE EVERYTHING BOUT YE.

Wednesday, July 21, 2004

a year older? im feelin old. blah. went out shopping just now. hope im gonna get my clinique happy heart soon. :) broke broke. mum made me pay fer some of da things i bought. :( and i thought she was supp te bring me shopping. cheat my feelings. blahh. alright. its getting pretty late already. time te sleep.

Tuesday, July 20, 2004

they say misery is an option but sometimes i find it hard te choose te be happy.
 
 
another day has gone past before me and before i know it im turning 15 in bout another hour plus more. blah. i feel old. so wut do i wish fer on my birthday... hrmm.. oh well nothing?  ..  gonna haf 2 tests tmr. and i did put in effort inte studying fer geog. if i fail. im gonna c r y.  im changing my point of view.
 
 
you're killing me over and over again unknowingly


  

 

Sunday, July 18, 2004

blahhh. another day has just passed before my eyes. sighs. nothing much happened today. just here te waste my time blogging bout nothing cuz i can't sleep at da moment. monday's timetable is screwed. eeeks. 3 periods of accnts.. boohooohoo. :( blah
 
alrights. before i forget. happy birthday te all the july baby's out there.. :) tt inculdes me. hehe,

blahhh. another day has just passed before my eyes. sighs. nothing much happened today. just here te waste my time blogging bout nothing cuz i can't sleep at da moment. monday's timetable is screwed. eeeks. 3 periods of accnts.. boohooohoo. :( blah
 
alrights. before i forget. happy birthday te all the july baby's out there.. :) tt inculdes me. hehe,

Saturday, July 17, 2004

It's nice to know that you were there
Thanks for acting like you cared
And making me feel like I was the only one
It's nice to know we had it all
Thanks for watching as I fall
And letting me know we were done.
 
 
 
blahh. spent da at home. missed band today. woke up with a stomach ache. heh. i admit. i'll just find any excuse not te go fer band. yes. im a slacker. somehow i feel im wasting my life away. sometimes even when ye dun't wanna care bout some shit. ye dun't haf a choice. hah.
 
 
 .>>* i've fallen,
          i've been broken.
          i'll stand up again
         
         
         

Friday, July 16, 2004

okaye this is where i practice the freedom of speech. forgive me fer all the vulgarities in my past and present entries. fuck my mother. i just want some space. leave me alone. so now wot has she done this time round. i don't know. maybe im just over-reacting. fine. im a bitch. im starting te dread each piano lesson. why. cux each lesson is about striving fer perfection. i ain't no perfectionist. heh. yea. im one hell of a slacker. so why ain't i quitting. mainly cux i dun't wanna give it up halfway again like  i did. and its time fer me te acomplish something. its time fer me te wake up and stop living in self denial. hrmm. my failing grades are my wake up call.  time fer me te start doing something bout em. been feeling rather lost. i need some sense of direction. why? i dun't know. okaye there goes the bitch again. bitch bitch bitch bitch fuck off. stop finding fault with me. just leave me alone. i believe im old enuf te handle my own affairs and i do haf the right not te consult ye on certain things and why do i haf te trust ye just cux ye are my mum. i've learnt te trust nobody but myself. bitch. and i dun't haf te respect ye either just cux ye are my mum. ye gain respect. not force others te respect ye. damn it. bitch. i hope one day ye wuld chance upon this blog and read every single entry. then ye'll realise how much i hate ye. bitch bitch bitch bitch bitch.

 

 

enuf of vulgarities. tt upper portion is dedicated te my mum.

 

 

went out after sch today te celebrate hum's bday. went te crepes and cream. and i think tt guy was like so gay. haha. dun't ask me why. im just being crap. took neoprints after tt.. but we culdn't decide on how te cut em up so well.. we'll just cut em on monday haha. crap. fergot te bring my phone today. damn. the next time round, i'll make sure i off the phone so tt no itchy fingers can find their way te my phonebook or wherever.  bleah. kae. this has been a pretty long entry. enuf fer now. byes.

Thursday, July 15, 2004

okaye. im bored. i've got a phy test tmr and im here slacking my life away haha. :P dun't care. geog rocks my world. blah. got loads more te complete :( school has been crappy?. hrmm... whatever. ahh. im not a bimbo kae. okay. maybe just a lil bit. blah. okaye. phy sucks officially. or maybe its just the teacher? hrmm. whatever. i dun't understand wtf is going on. someone save me...

Thursday, July 08, 2004

i swear geography sucks big time. fuck the homework. sigh can't get myself te do my work. bleah. despite the fact tt i've gotta hand it in tmr. argh. i dun't know wuts up with me. im still contemplating on wether i should turn up tmr or not. sad :( blah blah blah. argh~!@#$%^&*