jacinta LOVES jerlyn(:

i dun't need ye attitude.
i haf one of my own



hah. had a real strange dream last night which i'll prob forget in an hours time. sorraye. i haf a short term memory. ohh wells.. plenty of stuff has happened. hey. * i wonder if ye ever do think and reflect on ye actions. do ye actually realise tat ye actions contridict wot ye say and think? there seems te be more negative remarks bout ye then the positive ones. heh. i bet ye dun't know tat too. i wun't call ye a bitch cux i think ye are just too caught up in ye own world fer ye te stop and think bout ye own actions. and please. we ain't spare tires. please take note of tat. its really impt. whenever ye are with * we seem te be transparent huh? tats always the case. and i haf this strong feeling its cux ye like *. haha. contridicting yeself again. and when both of * and * are not arnd. ye turn te me huh? when * gives ye the cold shoulder ye turn te me. acck. i realised tat almost this whole post is bout YE again. i mentioned ye over and over again in this post. accks. its spoiling my day real badly. shall stop here.

boring boring boring. school bores the hell outta me. felt so sleeepy again. sighs. i've made up my mind. im out of it. i promise. tjl came in today and started scolding everyone. how nice of her. started nagging bout the classroom cleaniness. then after tat she made us all sit in front and started telling us bout the incident. and she used words like bitching and shithole?! new word. hahahs. starting giving us a lecture bout being 2 faced and bitching bout others behind her back. okay. i'm in deep thoughts right now. i dun't know whos side im on.

i hate myself for who i am. :(

the weather is really killing me. argh! just ran my 2.4 earlier this morning.. haha. so proud of myself.. this is the first time i passed my 2.4 since i was uh.. pri 5 or 6? haha.. okay. im sucha loser.. after 2.4 my dad gave us (ching, boon, poon, ame, amanda, januari and me) a lift te the macs at serangoon. went there fer breakfast. haha.. after tat. dropped ame, amanda and jan at bishan mrt.. then headed back te sch te get my accnts tb..ching and the rest went home frm there.. came home really tired and slept like a pig till it was almost dinner time. :) sighhs. im happy today. sometimes i just can't help myself.. i just realised tat im actually quite anti-social at times?! i just realised tat today.. i dun't know why..? now..why do i say tat? i was thinking bout it last night cux i was just so bored and i couldn't get to sleep. i realised tat i also never like te talk te others first unless im forced te. i wuld only do so if im comfortable with tat person. i wuld wait fer a person te come up te me and talk first rather then i go up te the person and say hi. ohh and at times. i just can't get myself te open my big mouth?! blah blah. retarded me. why the hell am i typing all this? ohhx.. my sister is convinced tat i have very low self confidence in myself. bleahx. i dun't think so! :) and i've decided. i shall NOT quit piano. nothing is ever easy when ye begin.. so i shall. put in more effort and prove te my sis tat im not sucha loser tat gives up in everything halfway :) hah. im bored. byes :)

celebrated tohs bday today haha.. went te the birthday place te cut the cake and borrowed the lighter from teaspa. hrrms.. culdn't finish the cake so we ended up playing with the rest of the cake. it was so embaressing when we had te walk te the toilet te clean up cux there were these pple from another ij sch. so malu!!! they wuld haf seen my "gorgeous" face. ohh wells. on my way back te the mrt. saw so many DIGUSTING PPLE. gawd. they haf no fashion sense at all. ohh shucks.i seriously need a haircut and my mum keeps on insiting tat i keep it a lil longer before i cut it again. argh. my hair is in sucha disgusting state right now i swear. argh.gotta run 2.4 tmr.. its gonna be sucha torture esp fer pple like me who haf no stamina at all. and the best part is i dun't even know wot time te be there?! exams are coming and i finally passed my maths test after failing 3 times!! so happy man!! got full marks fer my graph quest. ohh and geog was another maluating session. i had no idea of wot i was talking bout man. well..wot do ye expect.. i only saw my tb this morning. and the best part was when i was asked a question i din know how te answer.. so sickening!!! :( rraarararara. got nuthing else te blog abt alreadys. byes.

blah blah blah. i think all my previous are just so damn boring and i noticed tat in almost every single post there something common in each of em. i always mentioned abt how tired i was. okay in order not te break the trend.. im superly tired and i nearly fell asleep during hist. hehs. wasn't the only one. everyone was like zzz. culd tell from their faces. rrraarraaarraaa. re-did my 5 items did better fer almost all of em except fer s & r and stuupid sbj. i deproved fer my dumb sbj. argh.. so sickening! jump and jump also cannot pass the 160cm mark. hahah.. wasn't paying attention at all during bio and maths. damn. focus focus!! focus!!!!!! i seriously need te be reminded of tat all the time man. i dun't wanna get screwed up like last year again. eeeks talking bout last year. wot was i doing in class?! hrrms.. no idea AT ALL. guess i was prob sleeping? sickening. sickening. pay attention ye idiot!!! be patient!!!!!! argh. i think i need te hammer this inte my thick skull which consists of only water inside and nuthing else. :( blah blah blah.. just another one of those days.

hahahs. found a baby squirrel on the way home. my gosh. it was goddamn kewt. :) so preetty!!! hum and toh was with me at tat time. we din know wot te do with it. wanted te set it free somewhere else but was afraid it culdn't fend fer itself. in the end brought it te the OM and someone else took it home. damn. i sacrificed 5 hrs of sleep just te study fer my daamned chinese test and in the end, i culdn't even remember. my gosh.. so scrrrewwed up. argh! i was driving myself crraazy last night and i was like panicking like hell. rarrarararraa. sickening.

rarara. sucha a hot day it was today. had a maths test and tjl kept on looking at me all the time fer i dun't know wot reason?! whenever i looked up she wuld look at me. argh. so annoying.. and freaky. like as though i wuld cheat anyway. ah chan is sucha a sissy. i think shex so much worse than me. her behaviour is damn bimbotic. hahas. was really sleepy during his lessons and oh shit. he gave us hw as well. argh!! bananas. i haven't studied fer chinese and therex a huge pile of homework waiting te be completed. and my msg te tat whoeva is.. [pls stop treating me and ching like spare tyres.] thannk ye very much. :)

sighs. felt so tired the whole day. slept during chinese but was still felt like zzzing later on. hurx. indran bullied me during accnts again. why does she keep on making me sit in front?! i just dun't see the point. its just so inconvienient fer me when i haf te mover from one place te another!! argh!! can't she just let me sit at where i was originally seated?!!! bananas!!

argh. scrreewy. exams are like comming real soon and im slacking my arse off. argh! can't seem te get myself focused. damn it. acck. im really really hate maths. its getting on my nerves. can't seem te get anything right. ohh wells. got back my report card a few days ago. dun't dare te show it te my papa. prob gonna get a lecture? failed almost every single subject expect fer one. ohh damn. im supposed te be studying fer chinese and wot am i doin now? blogging. hurx. wot a pig i am. went fer a wedding dinner yest. it was real borring. all i did was stare at the person directly opposite me. din eat anything. except fer brocolli and some stuff here and there. in the middle of the dinner i walked out with my sis te the beach and it was so hot so we decided te go back.. tats how i spent my absolutely...wonnndderful... evening. argh. came home real tired and slept straightaway.

ahhh! im seriously gonna exceed my plan this month and im gonna get killed b dad. wahahas. and if he confiscates my phone, i'll be so sad.... boohhoohoo. okay. lame. acccks. i feel like sucha loser. i din even complete my 6 rounds today. gonna re-run it next sat. well even before i ran i already felt this pain in my stomach. and while running my first round it got even worse so i culdn't be bothered te run as the pain was draining away all my strength argh!! so i just stopped. sucha a loser right?! argh!! when i was running last night i was still fine. sighs. im bored. i just wrote a few testimonials. heh. so bored.. haha. got nuthing better te do.

i dun't know exactly wot i want right now. i can't make up my mind. hrmm.. school.. was boooring. damn i fell asleep during bio when jen chu was taking over ah chan's lesson. im starting te dread every single bio lesson. sorry te say this but jen chu is really boring.. hah. her voices just puts me of te sleep. ohh shucks. i need a haircut. seriously man. acck.

blah blah. i've been damn lazy te blog. hrmms.. concert. yeapx.. its over. dun't know if i shuld feel glad or sad. heh. we worked so hard fer the concert and before ye realise it, its over. wahahahs. before the concert judette tried te flatten my hair but ohh wells, lol. i waxed it back te wot it was orignally.. hahah.. at least we're *band-free* now! haha no more long torturing hours anymore. shit. therex still band the next monay. accnts. heh. tat woman bullied me again. she made me sit in front. argh!!! and after school, she made me and ching run all the way back te class te get her markers fer her cux she thought she had left the whole box when it was only 2 pathetic markers argh!! wadda waste of time and not to mention, energy. heh... jo teo scared the hell outta me today.. she was like " miss long. are ye in the band? ye gelled ye hair on the concert day right?! it was very obvious!!" omg. i was so freaked out. i was like damn scared tat she wuld scold me or something. and of cux. i denied.. lalala :) and then later on she was like " miss long! please tell ye band friends not te sell their tickets te their bf's blah blah blah.." argh!! and i was so scared. i thought she was like gonna scold me fer my hair or something. haha. so i spent the whole of english hiding behind newspapers! damn. i feel like sucha loser te haf te do tat. :( argh and tat ching. she finally made me admit tat i was her angel. argh.. i feel like a loser once again. yay. my angel finally wrote te me today.. wahahahas. i got sweets as well.. hrmms. pft. guess i shuld be able te pass the 5 items eh? lalala. this is a pretty long entry. byes.